Unfortunately, at the end of 2018, I was diagnosed with multiple mental disabilities and forced on medications for 6 months against my will, to make me "happy" with living with my mom and single for so long. It just ruined my brain to give me other disabilities and personality orders I choose to live with and not take medications that would further deteriorate my mentality and just make me drool staring at walls to not be able to stand or walk up/downstairs. 

I already knew 10,000+ songs, but during those 6 months I hated all music. Would drive in silence. I had a co-worker that 2018 Holiday season to show me Baby Don't stop, BY NCT , with Ten and Taeeyong. They now have a newer version, 5 years has passsed and we all continue to grow and change, for them to get more sexy. It has been a birthday wish to get a giant cake, even if carbaord covered in frosting, and have them jump out sining Baby Don't Stop. That same co-worker aslo showed me Monster, by EXO. She is enjoying her late retime prime. I had told her I would liten to them on a better system not of her phone casue she said it would be better. I hated all muisc then. When I got off the medications end of Feburary 2019, I remebered my promise, casue my seasonal job was done by then, and listened to the songs on my XP computer with THX/Klipsich speakers and sub. I got bit by the K-pop bug and fell in love with music again.

Today, I still love all music. Not so much country or American gangster rap, but music is music and I know too many songs today to not be able to remember lyric like I once could in my youth. That spring I had a terrible ear infection to be drowning out it and medications with loud music. I had downloaded a couple music apps to successfully make some songs. Started to write Rhymes also. I can make music and write words, but not put the two together. Often, I stop with beats due to not getting the sound I want limited to phone apps. But, I learned I enjoy writing more and stick to just that now,